I find that as the time comes near for me to move out and go on vacation the excitement I feel is running rampant. I feel like I've had 12 cups of coffee I'm so jittery all the time! I can't wait to be able to relax on the beach while reading a book that I actually want to read, not the is required of me to read. But in order to get to that point, I have to move into my new apartment first.
I get my new place on Friday afternoon, I'm taking a 1/2 off work in order to try and get everything settled. Then Saturday morning, Lover Boy and I take off with his parents and fly off the New Orleans where we will then drive to Santa Rosa Beach. As exciting as all this is, and it is VERY exciting. I find that I am beginning to start worrying and not wanting to live on my own again. It always takes me awhile to get used to returning to a home that is completely empty...no parents, no dog, just me and my thoughts and mountains of movies. Although its been a hard few months living at my parents, I love them so much, and its fun when you have nothing to do to walk into the other room and watch TV with my mom.
I know I can still do that, I mean they're just a 15 minute drive away. But its different. There's no one there when you walk through the door saying "hey sweetie! you're home! How was your day? Dinner will be ready in 30 minutes!". I realize now how much I've taken that for granted, and how wonderful my mom is to put up with my cranky mood because it's been so long since I've eaten lunch! I love that woman, and I'm sad at the idea that this is the last time I will live at home. Its so weird to think about that... I was born in that house, I've lived there for almost 20 years, and now... Se la ve, etc. It really is sad!
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You have a lot going on right now. And yeah, it'll be a change to be in the apartment by yourself, but after a while, you'll settle into a routine...and it might be nice to have some quiet time.
I remember when I left home to go to college - someone told me that once you leave, you can never "go home". It's never the same after you've moved out. There's a routine and a rhythm that comes with living somewhere with the same people for an extended period of time. I understand that now. But, you'll always have the relationship with your parents that ya'll have built for 20+ years. And my guess is...at 15 minutes away...you'll still get special pancakes for your birthday! :) (pass the maple syrup, please!)
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